This weekend wasn’t anything out of the ordinary. The sun came up on Saturday morning like it does every other day. The kids were sleeping, the dogs were ready to go outside and I got my morning cup of coffee to sit down and do my morning Bible Study like I do every morning. But there was a storm brewing. I am not talking about a thunderstorm that we are so accustom to in southwest Kansas this time of year. I am referring to one of those spiritual storms we will encounter in life and it had the looks to be really ugly.
If you aren’t familiar with what spiritual storms are or maybe haven’t ever put words to those situations, let me explain. These types of storms are what happen in the spiritual realm that affect our lives. Constant battles with your family, struggles in your marriage, basically things that mentally or spiritually exhaust you with little explanation.
There has been a lot weighing on my shoulders lately having to do with our family. I have been praying fervently for God to work in different areas that I could see Satan attacking. So I continued to pray throughout the day.
It seemed the harder I prayed the harder Satan was fighting. I could feel in my spirit that I was sinking further and further down. I could feel the dark clouds of despair over these situations coming but was helpless to stop it. The longer the day went, the darker things got.
Have you ever been caught in a thunderstorm? With the flashes of lighting, the loud claps of thunder, the pelting rain and hail? I felt all of that. Every area that was under attack shot out lightning, thunder, and torrential rain.
I felt so helpless to stop it. I cried out to God to please help with each moment. It seemed like every time I turned around, there was another wave of attack in this storm.
I am not sure that anyone in my house could tell there was anything wrong. I tried so hard to not let them see, to not take out my spiritual battle out on them. But I prayed and I kept praying.
All day I felt like God was completely silent. I know He was there, because I was resting in His promise to never leave us or forsake us, but still, He was silent.
That night, I crawled into bed and prayed desperately that God would intervene in these areas. I apologized to Him for sounding like I was complaining, but I wanted to get it all off of my chest. I wanted to know that everything that was weighing on my heart was taken to Him.
The list of all of the things Satan kept throwing in my face all day, I laid at the feet of Jesus. All of the concern, the burdens I was carrying was heaped up in a pile of tears and exhaustion. And I left it there and slept.
I didn’t wake up on Sunday feeling any better. In fact the storm was still raging and I felt I was raging too. I was becoming angry at everyone for their part in this storm. I prayed that God would change my heart. The last thing I wanted to do was go into church to worship with this anger, hurt and frustration.
I can’t tell you when, but at some point I started praying differently. Yes, I had laid all of my burdens at Jesus feet, but I was still desperately hanging on. I wasn’t letting go of any of it. But my prayer changed. I told God, He could take that pile of burdens mixed with tears and exhaustion and I would let go, completely..
How I am Living Victoriously in the Midst of Spiritual Storms
One of my most favorite books is called The Cycle of Victorious Living: Commit, trust, delight, and rest in Jesus Christ by Earl and Hazel Lee, recently updated by Scott Daniels. It focuses on Psalm 37’s foundation of Commit, Trust, Delight, Rest.
Commit to the Lord – Hands Down. When we commit our troubles to the Lord, we commit hands down so we can’t grab them back from Him again.
Trust in the Lord – Lean Hard. When we trust the Lord with our troubles, we lean hard. We enter into dependence on Him and lean on Him.
Delight in the Lord – Look Up. When we delight in the Lord, we look up to Him with deliberate intent daily and triumphantly.
Rest in the Lord – Cash In. When we rest in the Lord, we can cash in on the benefits of committing, trusting and delighting.
There is way more to the book, and I don’t want to ruin it for you, but I decided on Sunday to pray as the Cycle says.
The skies are starting to clear today. I am not going to deceive you and say that every problem I was praying about and Satan kept throwing in my face is fixed, in fact not one of them is. But I am choosing to lean hard and look up, knowing that God has my worries and is working things out in His plan and His timing. Knowing that allows me to rest in spite of the spiritual storms.
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